So I was sitting in the bath tub, somewhat enjoying the fact that it was quiet for a moment. I thought that I would use this time wisely and once again cry out to God and ask him again for patience in some upcoming things we have going on. Tears streaming I look up (because that’s just what we were taught to do) and I petition, “WHY? I have been patient for a while. WHEN? Can you just tell me! Then at least I will know! You have said your promises are true. I am so confused maybe I am just doing this all wrong.” It was then a small voice called out to me “MOM!” and I knew my moment of questioning was over. I wiped my face and prepared to be interrupted.
Cobe entered the room once again asking what he had been all morning “What are we doing this weekend? Cayden said we were…”(yadayadayada a long scenario unfolded)
To which I replied “Cobe it’s a surprise!”
Cobe replied with passion, “But I want to know! Are we going to Disney on Saturday?”
I smiled slyly. “I never said it would be Saturday.” Knowing it would be too much for him to handle.
This conversation went on for a few minutes and Cobe finally, with persistence, questioned “WHY? Mom! Why can’t you just tell me?” (I have to say that neither Cobe or I are good with surprises. We would rather just know so we can mentally prepare.)
I then said “Cobe, just trust us! We have it all planned out. You are going to love it! Stop trying to find out and just go with it!”
He hesitantly left the room with a large sigh and then BOOM it hit me. I started to laugh and I said okay God I see it.
Though Cobe had only been waiting, literally, a matter of 15 minutes before he came to ask me AGAIN, it was clear to me what God was trying to teach me. Sometimes as parents we have it figured out. We see more. We don’t have to let the kids know everything that is going on before it happens, good and bad. Just like that, our Heavenly Father has it figured out. Sometimes we just need to go with it and trust that we are going to love it, but we need to wait! Until God shows me other wise I will continue to hold on to his promises. I will probably not always have patience and He will probably have to interrupt my sacred bath time again, but His truth is all I have.
Two nights ago this popular verse popped into my head.
Isaiah 40:31 Yet those who wait for (hope in, trust in) the LORD Will gain new strength; They will mount up with wings like eagles, They will run and not get tired, They will walk and not become weary.
It so applies to my life for sure, but I thought about those around me that are burdened with their current circumstance. It is so easy to get caught up in the here and now instead of just trust that in the midst of the storm there is peace. That everything God has planned is PERFECT! He doesn’t make mistakes…for which I am so thankful. I may never understand some of the things that God has allowed me to walk through. Most of it private and unseen from those around me. If I lose hope in the one who makes the plans then what do I have hope for?
Cobe is gonna love this weekend, and I dare to say when he DOES find out what fun things we have planned, it’s going to be worth the wait!